The moral of the story is: If you're going to pray for something, be really specific.
The story is: Earlier this week we received a letter via email from the housing department at NOBTS and it caught me completely off guard. All this time I have been thinking there are three possibilites...the three bedroom apartment that I didn't like, the two bedroom apartment that was much better, and the four bedroom apartment that I LOVED. It was the four bedroom that I'd been praying for and it was the words "four bedroom" that stood out like a sore (really sore) thumb in the letter we received.
Apparently many people have applied to NOBTS--many more than they expected--and all of the family apartments are full. They are trying to accomodate as many as possible, however, and are offering the apartment usually inhabited by four single students to families. There are four bedrooms, two full baths, a living room, and a kitchen. There is a coin-operated laundry nearby. These apartments come fully furnished so we would not be able to bring our own furniture. This housing will only be temporary; when something opens up (in a few months or a semester?) we will be assigned to the three bedroom apartment building that I definitely did not want.
This is what the email said and when I read it I flipped out. I don't know why exactly, it's just not what I was expecting. I had waited for 3 months to find out where we were going to be living and the last thing I wanted to hear was, "We don't have room for you." Honestly, my first thoughts were so selfish! I wanted to say, "Aren't I sacrificing enough? Can't I get something that I want?" As if my sacrifice is anything compared to what Jesus gave. Even still it's what I felt along with a feeling of utter deflation.
I think a lot of how I felt had to do with the fact that this week was my last week of work. I am now officially a stay-at-home-mom. I thought that I was ready and really I am, I just wasn't fully prepared to say goodbye to everyone. I started getting kind of emotional Monday and it just spiralled down from there! Tuesday Dan, Metha, Jackie, and I (and Jathan, of course) went to Red Lobster for my going away and it was Tuesday afternoon that we got the letter so it was just a crazy, momentous day chock full of endings and beginnings. Looking back and moving forward. Sigh.

Now that it's a few days later and I've had time to think things over I realize that it's not that bad. It's not what I expected but hey, I'm always saying how people should relax and go with the flow! Today I got a chance to look over the floorplan of the temporary apartment we will be staying in (in a little over a month's time...eek!) and daydreamed about how to make it more homey. A slip-cover here, a curtain there and it'll be perfect in no time. = )
But, like I said, if you're going to pray for something, say a four-bedroom apartment, be really specific. You might even want to include an address or something, because God has a real sense of humor. Though I'm still not laughing, God.